This time last year I was worried.
I worried so much that one morning I physically couldn’t get out of bed.
I was terrified of pushing back the duvet and getting dressed and driving 5 minutes down the road to work. So I didn’t. I couldn’t. I couldn’t eat. I couldn’t sleep. I couldn’t see a way through.
The doctor called it anxiety. I knew the real reason…
This time last year I trusted no one. Not even God. And there was my problem. Because I couldn’t trust God with my life I was trying to carry it on my own. This time last year I had to trust God that he wouldn’t let me fall. But even if I did fall He would still catch me. So I let myself fall. And God caught me. This time last year I let go of all those plates I was spinning and watch them all come smashing to the ground, broken pieces all around me.
This time last year I was one of those broken pieces.
But God takes great delight in putting broken pieces back together again. This year God put me back together piece by piece. This year I have learned to trust God. Trust Him for the smallest of things. Things like pushing back the duvet, getting dressed and driving five minutes down the road to work. He has shown himself trustworthy and hasn’t let me down once.
What a difference a year makes. While this time last year I couldn’t trust Him to get me out of bed, this year I am trusting Him to help me with something a lot more monumental. I am releasing the book that I have been writing for the past five years.
The book is called: “The Woman on the Shelf.” My heart behind it is to encourage and inspire single women to not waste one moment of their singleness but see this season in a positive light. The structure of the book is based around the story of Ruth in the Bible and how she lived and acted in her singleness. Ruth found herself on the shelf in Moab when her husband died. But she placed some things on her shelf beside her which made the shelf a good place to be instead of a place of desolation and isolation. She placed worship on her shelf when she said to Naomi, “your God shall be my God.” She placed friendship on her shelf when she clung to Naomi and cried, “entreat me not to leave you.” Finally she placed purpose on her shelf when she declared, “Let me go to the field.” Readers are encouraged to do the same as Ruth and make this season about worship, friendship and purpose.
I am so excited to be releasing this toward the end of the year. Plans are underway and I will be keeping you informed, and as the time comes nearer I will be asking for your help in getting the word out!
This has been a blog of two halves but I wanted to write it to testify that no matter how dark things may seem for you right now, things will turn around. God will show up. You will move on. Provision will be made. You will reach your goal.
Proverbs 23:18 – “Surely there is a future and your hope will not be cut off.”