Where my soul will be satisfied…

…when I see your face
…when I feel your embrace
…when I will know as I am known

I cannot wait for that day.

Until then,
I live with a holy dissatisfaction
With a divine frustration
Until I see the One I love,
The One who loves me just as I am in the middle of this earthly mess
The One whose love will carry me through to that place

…where my soul will be satisfied.



I will be with the One I love
with unveiled face I’ll see Him
There my soul will be satisfied
Soon and very soon

This is the chorus of a song we sung at church yesterday.

Heaven isn’t really something we talk about a lot is it? I always thought it was for old people like the Gaithers! I was too busy here and now getting on with God’s business. This is a good attitude to have but now I realise that I was missing a vital ingredient in my life.

Heaven is an important concept to catch no matter how long you have been saved. New Christians need to realise that since we were born again we are made of different stuff and more experienced Christians need to gain a little perspective on life and what is going on around them. Whatever pain you’re going through right now, the moment you reach heaven and see the face of Jesus, you will never remember it. Equally, whatever success you are celebrating at the moment it will pale into insignificance in the light of his glory.

We can all become frustrated at times because of the circumstances around us. But circumstances are not the only reason for frustration. I believe that while we are on this earth we will live with a divine frustration. Frustration that is born of God because we have him living on the inside of us, yet we are living in a mortal body in a corrupt world. Sometimes these elements just don’t mix.

We need to realise that we don’t belong here and we just don’t fit in.
As they say, “Home is where the heart is.” But where is our home, our true home? We must remember that we are on a journey. 1 Peter 1:17 says: “Your life is a journey you must travel with a deep consciousness of God.” God has given us specific tasks to accomplish on that journey but ultimately our destination is heaven. We are not living for the celebration of man but for the approval of God.

Rom 8v22 says that the longing is within us. The God-part of us longs for heaven and we will never be truly satisfied here on earth. We criticise the world for trying to fill a void in their lives that was meant for God alone. This is true, but Christians are guilty of doing the same thing, only we fill it with different things, e.g. ministry, family etc. We feel guilty because we are not fully satisfied; we think there is something wrong with us and our relationship with God. But he intended it to be like that all along. Look at 2 Cor 5v2-4: “we’ll never have to relocate our “tents” again. Sometimes we can hardly wait to move–and so we cry out in frustration. Compared to what’s coming, living conditions around here seem like a stopover in an unfurnished shack, and we’re tired of it! We’ve been given a glimpse of the real thing, our true home, our resurrection bodies!”

Let us never forget that we can and will leave all this behind. All the bad stuff, all the good stuff. We can walk away from it. We have to walk on regardless. Let us take comfort in that.

We can never become too attached to this place. Even good stuff can distract us.

There is a song by U2 which says this far more beautifully than I can:

Walk On

And love is not the easy thing
The only baggage that you can bring…
And love is not the easy thing…
The only baggage you can bring
Is all that you can’t leave behind

And if the darkness is to keep us apart
And if the daylight feels like it’s a long way off
And if your glass heart should crack
And for a second you turn back
Oh no, be strong

Walk on, walk on
What you got they can’t steal it
No they can’t even feel it
Walk on, walk on…
Stay safe tonight

You’re packing a suitcase for a place none of us has been
A place that has to be believed to be seen
You could have flown away
A singing bird in an open cage
Who will only fly, only fly for freedom

Walk on, walk on
What you’ve got they can’t deny it
Can’t sell it, or buy it
Walk on, walk on
Stay safe tonight

And I know it aches
And your heart it breaks
And you can only take so much
Walk on, walk on

Home… hard to know what it is if you’ve never had one
Home… I can’t say where it is but I know I’m going home
That’s where the heart is

and I know it aches
How your heart it breaks
And you can only take so much
Walk on, walk on

Leave it behind
You got to leave it behind
All that you fashion
All that you make
All that you build
All that you break
All that you measure
All that you feel
All this you can leave behind
All that you reason
All that you sense
All that you speak
All you dress-up
All that you scheme…

I take such comfort in those words. I know that someday I get to walk out of here, leave everything behind and see my Redeemer and know Him just as I am known.

What a day that will be…