Today is the 2 year anniversary of Britain going into lockdown. I remember it so well. I was sitting on the sofa in my living room watching Boris give his speech and I distinctly remember feeling so alone. This was it. But I thought I would be ok. I mean, it was only going to be for three weeks?
Right?
How wrong was I!!!! By the end of two weeks I had to move in with my parents because I couldn’t cope with being on my own. I needed their physical and emotional support in a way I had never done in my adult years.
You’ll notice the title of this piece is called ‘make your manna.’ Now what does that have to do with all that I have just said? I was sitting outside today in the sun at the end of these two years and I realised that I did come out the other side, however I am not the same person I was and I feel I have had things taken from me and I have questions.
Just being real here.
I was reading about the Israelites and Moses’ instructions about the manna that was being provided for them. The ingredients for the manna came every morning, but it wasn’t a completely finished product. They had to grind it, mix it, bake it, then it was ready to be eaten.
They had to make their manna! I had never realised that before. The definition of manna is ‘what is it?’ so not only did they have to eat something they didn’t know but they had to make it as well. That sounds a bit unfair to me.
God never revealed the name.
They had to rely on His faithfulness and that He would sustain them even in the mystery.
So what has all this got to do with the past two years? Well, in my opinion there has never been a more confusing time in recent history and I have asked God, “What is going on? What is it?”
I haven’t got answers but every day for these past two years the ingredients for the manna came and when I was obedient I made the manna and I was sustained.
I hope this encourages you to keep making your manna and gain strength even when you haven’t a clue what’s going on.
Lots of love, Lisa Jane
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