I Am Not

I am not my facebook status

I am not the books on my shelf

I am not the music on my iPod

I am not the clothes in my wardrobe

I am not the ring on my finger – or lack of it

I am not my weight or height or physical capabilities or disabilities

I am not my pay packet

I am not my postcode

I am not my mother

I am not my father

I’m writing this down because I forget.

I fall for the lie all the time that these things make me who I am – They do not.

My life is hid with Christ in God – The I am.

He is everything I’m not.


Refusing to be Part of a Fatherless Generation

Here is the script of a monologue I wrote for my church, Green Pastures, on Father’s Day.  The main challenge it’s bringing is if we will allow ourselves to be fathered by our Abba Father.


Hope you enjoy…


Refusing to be Part of Fatherless Generation


What does a fatherless generation look like?

It looks Chaotic, Fragmented and Dislocated

A swirling mass of confusion!

Without any hope.



Because, there is no father to speak order.

Just as the Father of the Universe spoke order at creation and a world came into being,

They don’t have that.


There is no one to say, “Let there be” in their lives.

There is no light being spoken into the darkness of their souls.

There is no one saying, “It is good” over them.

There is no approval of who they are,

They never feel good enough.


Constantly trying! Constantly improving!

But never quite making the mark!

Thus, a fatherless generation is always disappointed with itself.


But ultimately, a fatherless generation is afraid.

The root of fear is not lack of faith, but a lack of love:

“Those who fear have not been made perfect in love; for perfect love casts out fear.”

This generation is afraid, for they have not been perfected in their father’s love.

They are afraid to be all they were created to be,

Lest they lack the approval, of their father


And so the cycle continues.


But a new generation is rising up!

A generation who are refusing to be fatherless!

No matter what our family tree looks like,

No matter what our genetic makeup tells us,

We have been adopted, to be fathered by Abba Father – Daddy God!


We are allowing Abba to speak order into our chaos.

He is saying, “Let there be,” and there is.

Where there was brokenness, now there is healing,

Where there was shame, now there is acceptance,

Where there was guilt, now there is forgiveness.


Before Jesus did any miracle,

Before he preached any sermon,

Before he healed any sick person

His Father said “This is my beloved Son in whom I am well pleased,”

Today on Father’s Day 2011 our Heavenly Father is saying this over us.

Our Daddy God is saying, “It is good” over us.

We have his approval.

We can be secure in his love and acceptance.


You can stop trying now!


Will you allow yourself to be fathered?

Will you lay down your independence and hurt?

Will you refuse to be part of a fatherless generation?

Will you be fathered by him?

Full Attention

This song is the prayer of my heart right now.  Life is so noisy and it’s so easy to get caught up in the humdrum of it all.  Whilst it’s not possible to live life as a silent retreat, I can at least pray that His voice is louder than all the others.



Jeremy Riddle

May Your voice be louder

May Your voice be clearer

Than all the others, than all the others

May Your face be dearer

May Your words be sweeter

Than all the others

Than all the others in my life

Please keep my eyes fixed on You

Please root my heart so deep in You

Keep me abiding, keep me abiding

Keep me abiding that I

Oh, that I might bear fruit

May Your presence be truer

May Your presence be nearer

Than all the others, than all the others

May Your light burn brighter

May Your love go deeper

Than all the others

Than all the others in my life

John 15:4: As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself unless it abides in the vine, so neither can you unless you abide in Me.

Do you need to adjust the volume levels in your life?

Healing Begins

These are the lyrics of a song by Tenth Avenue North.  They really describe the process I began two years ago when I started to take off the mask that I had been wearing all my life.  I had spent all my life being brave and I had buried a lot of  pain and brokenness that I needed to get out of me before I moved on with the rest of my life.  James 5:16 says, “Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed.”  It doesn’t say it bring forgiveness, only God can do that.  But confession and being real with the people around you brings healing.  I hope and pray that you have those people around you who can see you at your worst and still believe the best.


So you thought you had to keep this up

All the work that you do

So we think that you’re good

And you can’t believe it’s not enough

All the walls you built up

Are just glass on the outside


So let them fall down

There’s freedom waiting in the sound

When you let your walls fall to the ground

We’re here now


This is where the healing begins oh

This is where the healing starts

When you come to where you’re broken within

The light meets the dark

The light meets the dark


Afraid to let your secrets out

Everything that you hide

Can come crashing through the door now

But too scared to face all your fear

So you hide but you find

That the shame won’t disappear


So let it fall down

There’s freedom waiting in the sound

When you let your walls fall to the ground

We’re here now


Sparks will fly as grace collides

With the dark inside of us

So please don’t fight

This coming light

Let this blood come cover us

His blood can cover us